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It's one of life's little ironies

2006-04-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

In a interpersonal relationship:-

You hurt will be in proportion to how much u care and need your partner.

If you care a great deal, your are likely to experience great hurt; if you care less,the hurt wil be less.

Retrieved from The International Communication Book Tenth Edition, Joseph A.Devito, 2004.

it's a 1st time in a long time..

2006-04-05T15:08:00.000+08:00

I have been so long away from blog…no intention, no inspiration, many lamn reasons that I can state out. Once I logged in, I saw two new comments, so happy to open and read,umm, someone i don know,is new girls.but…is something porn thingy, put in my comment box! But only two..haha,is quite funny..everyone got it too,right?
I think, I hope, and I wish to update my blog more often. no people read, but me.

IDIOM INSIGHT

2005-07-30T11:18:00.000+08:00

Beg the Question

If i were to ask someone a question and he failed to answer or replied with lots of words which still failed to be a reply,he would be begging the question.When i ask the boss for a holiday he begged the question by telling me he was too busy to talk about it.

From:The Star,Star Two(28 JULY 2005)

that car!!

2005-07-12T21:41:00.000+08:00

AROUND 9.15PM,12TH JULY 2004,SS2

shit that car-wira,green in colour,driver is girl,wear in black-grim glasses!!!

y i shit that car and her driver!!!!

she almost knock me,and 2 of my frens who r jing-wen and hui min at SS2.She wanted U-turn,but the tyre already in the white line and no signal!!!my fren scare till scream and alot of people having dinner in the 'wong kok char chan teng'!!

no sory,but glared on us!!walao!wat such a shit girl like that one..?i quite respect girl one,but she is really over,she is bcome my num1 shit girl in my list!

thanks god...

my expectation..

2005-07-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

my expectation..i know something is gonna to happen,i know the result will be like this,y i still wn to set my expectation in life..

everytime,when the expectation comes to me,i accept it,i don know how to ignore them..mayb is nothing i can ignore..once the expectation is match v my mind..it starts growing in evry cell and suck into my bones..i climbing the stair to higher place to make me closer to the target..i do many thing bcos of 'u'..but nothing responce..i know there is something not wat i expected and thought..but i keep climbing up..hope one day..my expectation bcome true..

no..i'm falling down when i knew the result,not to the flooe is the hell..is wat i expected..?is any different from my initial mind..?hmm..i don know wat my feeling is..like m expectation is not allowed me to expect,push me to the edge..i don know where i should stand to survive my mind..there is no backup for my mind..is like broken in the air..no chance to get it back and glue it together..although yes,there is joint there,no good..no perfect..

i hv to wash away wat has sucked into my mind and bones with acid..i don wn..but i hv to..

no more expectation..i know..no more..

Pillow Talk..

2005-06-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Pillow talk..i don know this word b4 i asked myang..eh..i created it by myself. :P

Myang’s definition of pillow talk : girls hold the pillow and talk together.
Ken’s definition of pillow talk : a guy who is moonstruck (talk to pillow and smile around. )

Umm, I got this kind of anomalous action when I was over-happy or over-sad, but more on over-happy. I got 2 pillows, eh..i named them as BABY and another one is BYBA.

Characteristic of BABY:
Weight: 500g
Experience: 3 and a half year
Wear in pink v flower(no new shirt, hard to find one)
Losing weight

Characteristic of BYBA:
Weight: ><1kg
Experience:1 and a half year
Wear in blue v bear(no new shirt, too fat and less choices)
Losing weight

Anytime I lie on the bed, I wont let them far away from me. We are so close to each other. I love to hold them on my chest. Hey, they are peeping at my blog now! I ‘piak’ their pat pat already! haha!

I always share my feeling and thinking v them, I think they r understand, they rather stay quiet to listen to me than give me a response!

Baby says: Hello, ken’s frens there.
Byba says: Thanks ken’s frens for taking care of him.

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where is her..?

2005-06-10T01:24:00.000+08:00

her...my Buddy..she is gone..went to place that i don know...u lost...u r not in cage where i talked to u..i admit,i sometimes quite angry cos u was barking at me!i don understand u,mayb u don hv mood to play v me and lick me as usually...i rather u bark at me but not lost urself...

this is golden retriever,is an purebred or not,not important..u came here last few months,but i didn't notice u..really sorry about that,Buddy.u r so cute and i still remembered u was playing v a small pink colour ball.u jump here and there,really cute,indeed...i think this is the only memory when u were a puppy..

one day,we were meeting up,u r so innocent,i can't stop myself running to u,i dare not touch u at first cos u got teeth,sharp teeth!but i tried...we bcome closer,i started talking to u..wat i dare not tel my frens,i would tel u honestly,never concealed it.u were shaking ur tail when u see me,i so happy and excited when i saw u also.we were sharing each other feeling,u shared my happiness and i share ur loneliness.i shared wat i saw in sch,anywhere..u listned to me also sometimes.but u bite me more than u listened to me,i'd like to..

i introduced my frens to u,treat u as a human..although u don understand wat i did..my frens said u r cute..i don wn lost u..i really do wn lost u...where u hv been..?u still alive is the Q for me which i always think..but i prefer u live in better condition than wangsa maju...u had a short but bad memories,i would like to share v u..

i hope u can happy for the rest of life..under a good owner care,obtain the freedom that u desired for a long time..i hope..i hope...My BUDDY

DINNER..

2005-04-23T02:51:00.000+08:00

dinner,who really know the meaning of dinner?!is a meal or a table of foods?actually,dinner is just like people sit together and eat(spring festival reunion),mayb u did every year,y don everyday..

i read a email,the title is 'do u hv ur dinner?'

now,young people like to hv dinner outside in fast food restaurant v fren,yum cha till midnight,study at outstation,don hv chance to eat together.Dinner loss its meaning little by little..no one cared for the 'dinner' in future,even now..

'dad' sometimes late go back home bcos of working outside to earn money,majority of young people won wait for their parents to hv dinner together but eat 1st and go out after dinner.

mayb u will say..so late already,i can't wait..how about ur 'father' who just back from working?u eat 1st,nvm ,but will u sit and talk to ur parents while they hving their dinner?talking while eating is not good,if the dinner time is only chance for u to talk to ur parents?talk about what happened in sch,ur result in sch,ur girlfren/boyfren...

when only u cherish the chance and time to sit v ur parents and hv dinner?is it only spring festival reunion?when nobody ask u hang out together?when no money to order a burger in KFC/McD?or....when no more person makes u a dinner?

yes,no complaint from ur father about it,y don u take the 1st step?y people always regret after but not b4 that..?fast food always be there and wait for u..10 years,20years...100 years..still there and alot of them,how about our parents..?they still can wait for us after 100 years..?

chinese attach importance to dinner,but how many chinese don know it,don wn it and didn do it?

'got 100 marks in exam..how about u pay more attention;care;love for them..?'u can love ur bf/gf so much,y not love them also?u hv a 'universal' love for ur bf/gf only,where is the love for ur parents?bf and gf is the sun and moon for u,how about ur dad and mom?soil?yea,they bcome 'soil' volunteer,they would rather dirty themself for for their ove one,u..

family sit and hv dinner TOGETHER,this only called 'dinner'...

I want to be BRAVE!!!..umm..can i..?

2005-04-22T05:11:00.000+08:00

i wn to be brave...i can do it?mayb u r thinking..brave in wat/for wat?..i know the answer..but i dare not tel u here,cos i'm not brave enough..i admit that i'm coward..always think too much,this made me failed to do many things,now also.but i still keep it as my behavior,many of my frens r complain about my this stupid behavior..ask me change it if not...bla blah lah!umm,feel thankful 4 their opinions..i wn to change also..but shouldn't inside 'me' let me change it..?'He' challenges my endurance,my persistence..i lost..i'm loser in front of inside 'me'.wat else i can do..?

is it ' don think too much = brave? ' is it the answer can reach my satisfaction..?

i don wn to think it again,nothing changes,y should i to think it so many times..

i suffered v thinking too much(not brave enough)last time,i missed many things bcos of this,now also,but not that serious..like blogging..i didn't blog here cos i scare of other's criticism,i scare of other know my inside thinking and 'secret(s)'...

is it think too much not good??u won be too rash in doing things..cos u hv to think 'too much',u think solution(s) or method(s) in solving a problem also(the situation)while u think too much..is it bad..?

contradiction always exist in my mind...good against to bad,'good' against to 'bad'?

brave to speak out my mind and thinking is only thing i cared...but couldn't other accept it..?is it the another Q coexist?um..don wn think anymore,just be myself-IDEAL-SELF..

i'm brave now...?yeah!!!!....really brave..?umm...eh...don know..
P/S:i don know wat i wrote,actually.

Million Dollar Baby...

2005-04-17T18:35:00.000+08:00

umm...i watched this movie in myang house...i don understand the meaning of the movie!!!no subtitle for me....myang's fault!!ha!actually he wanted me listen to the movie..but..sory..i really don understand the movie..!the story is simple..about a boxer v a trainer..umm..clint eastwood,is the directer and the male actor,and another male actor is morganXXX..forgot his name and female actor....

a female boxer..she is pretty,differ from other 'female' actor who looks like:( man,aunty)she asked 'frankie' end her life v a dos of unnamed medicine after she can't move anymore but lying on the bed..'frankie' love but lost her daughter...she just like his daughter..he don wn her 'daughter' suffering anymore...die is only way of release her from the pain and hopeless..he 'killed' her after he kissed on her cheek..she really brave,she did what other girls dare not do...is a sad story actually..i love it..but who can translates for me when i watch it next time?..!!!

1st time i blogging here..

2005-04-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

helo,everybody who is reading my blog...i prefer more chinese to blog here,cos my english not good,but i will try my best to blog in english too...hope u all don laugh at my stupid grammar mistakes and words...and don hesitate to give me a commend,thanks!!